Hello World!

You wouldn't believe this but I started this blog at least 3 years ago. Many of the posts have been deleted because they came from a place of hatred. I would only write when I was mad. I felt myself shaming my child's father a lot and writing about messed up f***** up relationships. After I wasn't mad anymore I would delete everything I wrote. Everything that was written was very angry. So now I'm writing this blog just because I have nothing better to do and I can't afford a therapist.

Take this happy friendless journey with me. As I write this I get the sense that no one is ever going to read it but I'm not going to delete this post.

My name is Regina, I am 20 something. I am closer to 30 but I rather just tell people I'm 20 something, it sounds better than 30. Thirty years old sounds like a old woman and I'm not ready to be an old woman. I'm not ready to be my mother. I'm not ready to be my aunt. So I will say I'm 20 something up until November 28th of the year I turn 30. 

My 13 year old self would be so disappointed with how my life has turned out. S*** my 19 year old self would be disappointed. But there's really nothing I can do about how my life has turned out. What has happened has happened. Since I was 19 I have have had a child I graduated college and that's basically it. Oh yeah I met this wonderful guy who I love so much. And THAT'S basically it. That's my whole life. I was a child, I was a teenager, I had a child, I graduated college, I became an adult, I met a man, I fell in love and that's it. Nothing else has happened in my life. Now you may say "Hey you know you're missing a couple of things there". Things are a little scrambled you had a child, you finished college, you became an adult, you met a man you loved. When did you get married?and don't you fall in love before you have children? I always have to take the difficult route to do things I can never just be straightforward. 

One might argue that I'm leaving details out. But come on let's be honest do you really want to hear about me being sodomized or being in an abusive relationship?